June 7, 2007
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DYSARTHRIA
Why is it that I have to feel so guilty when I cry? God has given me so many blessings I can’t count them…then when a little something happens, I cry. I can’t cry when I’m suppose to…like funerals and such, but let my little world tip just a little bit and I cry.
I’ve spent the last 2 days feeling like a weakling, a whimp, weak and helpless, and yes, I can cry at any given moment. I’ve actually been given good news (not real good, but good)
Wednesday, June 6, 2007, I went to a speech therapist because of my speech. The therapist is a woman, which is the first good news. She thinks she can train me to speek better after 8 or 9 weeks of therapy, which is good news. She wants me to go to a neurologist (sp?) to see if they can determine what has caused the problem. She named the problem but she can’t tell me what caused it.
It is called Dysarthria, (You can google it) Myself, I’d probably been better off if I hadn’t. It sounds like it’s not serious in itself, but the cause of it might be of a progresive nature, which could lead to something more serious in the end.
The problem I have is often the result of Lou Gerigs or Parkinson’s, but it don’t have to be. It can be head injury or brain tumor or all kinds of exciting things. That is why the therapist wants me to go to someone that can determine the cause.
BTW the therapist strongly outruled Parkinson’s. because after asking me lots of questions. I was still with it enough to answer all of them right. She asked me what day it was? On which street was the office located on, in which town and all kinds of questions pertainig to numbers. Yesterday she had me count to 100 one number at a time. She said people with Parkinson’s can’t remember numbers, and often drop things like pens, etc.
I’ll have 3 one hour sesions each week for about 8 weeks. I’ll probably know the way to Meridian with my eyes closed when it is all over with. Meridian is east of us, close to a 50 mile drive one way.
Before we left she showed me her card….. she is a Speech Language Pathologist, a certified VitalStim Swallowing Specialist also a Certified Lee Silverman Voice Treatment. (you can also google Lee Silverman Voice Treatment)
I feel kinda guilty, because the reason she showed me her card was because we told her our children think all Idaho has for doctors is jack-rabbits. But you will find if you look it up that Idaho has 3 of these Lee Silverman Voice Treatment therapist. One in Moscow and one in Coeur d’ Alene. I think Oregon has 42 such therapists. So I’m in good hands.
Don’t be too hard on my darlings, I know they love me, and they want me to have the best. (Portland, OR)The series of events shows me God is with me: We had a therapist in Ontario that moved on (hopped off) before my appointment, Pop looked in the yellow pages and after several trys, decided on the first one he could get, where a real people answered the phone, and I could get right in.
Why do I cry?……..I don’t know, it seems like I want my children close….I guess I’ll go out tonight and see if I can get a couple sage brush bushes to geve me a hug.
HE GIVES STRENGTH TO THE WEARY….THEY SHALL SOAR ON WINGS LIKE EAGLES. ISAIAH 40, 29&30 /nkj
I am weak but thou art strong: Jesus, keep me from all wrong; I’ll be satisfied just as long, as I walk, let me walk close to thee. (Author Unknown)
Comments (9)
Mom but really this is great news. Whether its something prgressive or not its immaterial really. Think of it this way. If it is progressive it would have progressed whether you have a diagnosis or not. The diagnosis doesnt change it but it does give hope for the future. If she can help you talk your life will be changed. You’re probably crying because you’re half relieved and half scared and its nothing but you and the jackrabbits. But really this is a good thing. You could always come over and visit me for a few days ya know.
Well I just spent the last little while googling Dysarthria. Sure there are progressive diseases that casue this but its also commonly caused by stroke. Your doctors have suspected all along that you had a stroke of some sort when youre blood pressure was so high so thats probably all it is.
Thanks, for your positive outlook and your encouragement. Dr. Darling!
There’s nothing wrong with crying. It helps to relieve some of the tension you have been holding in. I think those that have experienced stroke often have a problem handling their emotions … and find themselves crying at odd times and places. I will be thinking of you and praying for you this summer as you are going through your therapy. I’m glad you found a therapist that is fairly close to home, and a good one at that. I enjoyed reading about your adventures while taking pictures. I love the one with the moon over the lake … it means more when I know what you had to go through to get the picture. Your profile pic of the rose is one of my favorites. I want to plant roses when I get to my new home. I’d love to plant one of that variety.
Take care. And remember, you will have a lot of people praying for you. It makes a difference. ~~Ruth
saying a prayer for you.
ryc: no, it really wasn’t that hard to make, i think my family’s getting tired of them. =)
May the Lord ease your heart as you give him your worries. Glad you have such a well trained speech therapist. It comforts me that the other one in Idaho is in Coeur d’Alene should Nathan need services outside of the school setting. Crying releases stress … use my shoulder and those of your readers all you want. Hugs, prayers and best wishes for a successful treatment.
You could come visit and cry at my house–its used to tears!=) I am so happy that you have hope for getting back your speech–I know that has been hard for you–Love ya lots and my prayers are there!
It’s used to tears? Sharon you are too funny!
So mom are you done crying?
Oh dear, my eyes are filling with tears..I had no idea you were having problems like this. I’ll be adding my prayers to the prayers of others for you!