August 5, 2008

  • MISC. THOUGHTS

    "This is the day that the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it"

    There has so much been going on in my life lately that,......what?  I sit here and don't know where to start.  I get to feeling really guilty when I have bad days. Especially so many of them in a row.  I thank God that I feel better today.  I feel like I've let laziness take over...Although the doctor said I'd have more days of fatigue as time went on. I won't accept it,  I can't accept it.  It seems like if I use that for an excuse, I'll get to the point where I'll be good for nothing. ( I already have days when I struggle with feeling good for nothing and I mean nothing,.)  In the back of my mind I know that God has a reason for me being here, if only I can fulfill His purpose for my life.

    Yesterday as I was sitting in my chair, I tried to analyze why it is that I'm so comfortable just sitting around or taking a nap.  I thought to myself  "This is ridicules" so I forced myself to get up and then it came to me.... I have no pain or strain when I'm sitting or laying (for this I am thankful).... when I get up and move around it is an effort and after awhile my back feels tight and begins to hurt, my legs ache and I'm a mess. 

    I first noticed my aches and pains a couple years after me moved to Idaho. We moved from a 17 room house to a 7 room house.  I blamed it on the house being too small = I was too big for my house.  I finally got so tired I went to the doctor about it, along with my speech problem.  I told the Dr. as best as I could, my troubles, I explained to him exactly how I felt including ny feeling that I was too big for my house.  He made no comment and soon after he left the room. I thought he didn't pay any attention, till he came back and said, "I've got some medicine for you that will make you feel better and also make so you fit into your house"

    You want to read about more of my troubles....... Pop,is a man of many words and many questions. and I have a big problem talking to him as much as likes me to and that causes many frustrations, for me anyhow.  (Maybe he's glad because I can't argue with him anymore.)    He is feeling better and he goes to town and comes back and tries to tell me all the stuff he seen on sale and all the prices that have gone up, this young kid driving a big pickup with no idea how much it costs for gas, Pilot has the cheapest gas, there is a new Love's station going in and that will hurt Pilot big time, he met Mr.? in town and Pop don't understand how that guy makes it with a family, (you never see him working,) The neighbor got a new lawn mower that almost bigger than his yard, he don't how the neighbor will turn the thing around in his yard. And I just grunt once in awhile and Pop seems happy with that.  He asked me a question about something this morning and I told him, NO. He laughed and said, he could still understand when I said "no" and he hopes I never lose the ability to say "no" he thinks it's cute.  grrr    

    I thank God that Pop is feeling better, although he has to be very careful or he gets weak and shaky.  The other day he thought he could trim up the lawn.  It wasn't too long till he was back in the house on his recliner.  He still waiting to get strong enough for another surgery in which they will go in and remove his kidney stone and hopefully the one catheter that drains his left kidney.

     

Comments (4)

  • Thanks for sharing, Virginia.  Continuing to lift you and "Pops" before the Throne.  LU

  • Ben inherited pops "many words" syndrome and McKenzie got it from her pop. I'm lucky if I can get in a word edgewise.............. :)

  • Virginia,

    I am sorry that you are not feeling well and are having so many bad days in a row. Sometimes I feel as if I am of much use as well but then I remember that no matter what my circumstance is, I can pray. There are times in our lives when there is nothing else we can do but pray. Let us not forget how powerful prayer can be. What an honor and privilege to be able to intercede for others before the throne of Grace.

    Gina

  • It's good to know that your fingers can still 'talk' ... sorry to read of your difficult days ... but glad that you realize the need to rest and not be a "gad about town" ... sometimes (most) God uses the quiet restful times to speak clearly to our hearts ... so don't go trying to think up stuff to do ;) Maybe your neighbor with the too big lawnmower can come over and practice for a while on Pops lawn (just a thought ;) ... Are you learning any sign language words? You'd really do well to have someone teach you some basic words ... maybe your local library even has a sign language picture dictionary. If you want a giggle ... pop on over and read about Nathan's language struggles and my solution. Miss you. Hugs and prayers and God's favor upon you.

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